Personal Experiences

People sometimes asks to me that how i write these poetry and other stories,because i am from an architectural background, i can also make drawings very well and sometimes i show my interest in music also,although for me i am not a perfect lady in writing yet. yes, there is a lot and many more things which i have to learn and write. But i just only can say when we feel things deeply inside,we can write those feelings on paper. It depends on person to person, how they take the things. Some find better medium to express their feelings such as anger, affection,sad moods or happiness and some find themselves a bit conservative to express their feelings, for such people writing can be little easy because they feel the things deeply.Interest can make difficult things easier and yes,it definitely applies on me.I have great interest towards writing,although i was not aware to it. And of course,without any interest nothing can be possible and if it become possible,one can't enjoy the life.

The Empty Bowl

Some years before, when we shifted in our new house i was so happy to see a huge farm-house like ground in front of our house where four eucalyptus trees were stand beside the two Azadirachta indica which is called as Neem Tree also. It was full of greenery and there were four or five rooms looked like an old village house, the reason behind was shooting of TV serials. It looked nice in night when scenes were shoots in multiple lights.The heights of the buildings was also on the same level as it was of my house,that is why it always looked beautiful in winters to sit down in the sun, such as sitting in the nature's lap that i wanted to be always. I am a nature loving person and it was like heaven for me. After some years, Time changed, things changed and it changed the whole area around me in a small,deserted prison which make us squirm for a breath. With every development, we goes far away from nature due to our ignorance towards it.

In few years, The heights of surroundings buildings had crossed that level and with increasing heights of each building was giving the feeling of haughtiness.Yes,with increasing numbers of coins,Human ego increases which sometimes feel me when i look towards these buildings.

Now there is a school building in place of those green trees. There is nothing seems like before.Everything has changed. Nothing remains same in this world neither relations nor things. But when we cut a special moments or special parts from our life it seems like colorless and dusty.

Wish For The Good

It was another a cold-stone day of winter when i was lay down on my bed in quilt and didn't wish to came out from my bed. I was watching a movie on T.v when bell rang and finally, I had to come out to open the main door. A skinny man, around 40-45 years old was there. He had wore a light-blue colored sweater over his dark blue-shirt and black colored pant which was looking quite old. He also had a woolen cap and holding a notepad and a pen. A man of the same age was besides him holding a stick, he might be blind, i guessed. He asked to me for some donation for the blind school. I, for a sometime, thought Is he right? because there are lots of people who have made this a business and they command donation on the name of such people who are physically challenged. But,That man said to me pointing towards the blind man," we are from blind school for donation. We are not crook,he is blind, can you help for some money"? "wait" I said to him and went inside and asked to my mother whether i should give or not. My mother told me that they come in every one month and they are not strangers. So I went back to them and donated some money. He gave me a receipt and both walked away.

I got overwhelmed while they were going and I wanted to know much more about them.It is really very tragic that some people spend their all money on such happiness which are just for few days but they don't have a single time to help such people who are physically challenged and unable to spend their lives normally. They have to face obstacles and compel to depend on others. I know some people who spend thousand rupees on their single dress and hardly use it for some days but, they don't have 50-100 Rs. for such people,Really Embarrassing. May be it is apply on me also and may be I, one of them but I think I should change my views for another aspect because all people can't be crook,there are lots of people who are really in need. Although,I have lots of reasons not to believe on God, but I really wish that God make be independent in every aspect so that i can help in better way for such people.

The selfish Desire

Is anyone can be so selfish that he just thinks about himself? Of course, I usually watch such people every day in my life. There are lot people who just sit and watch the drama of others, even they don't raise their voice if anything bad happens to others or don't help if anyone in need. I feel irritate when I watch all this really. Sometimes feel nice to see such kind people who help others.

One day, I board a metro during evening while coming from my work. It was a peak hour. The compartment was full of rush. A lady, was there in front of me and it was her 5-6 months of pregnancy. I looked at her carefully to confirm if I might be wrong. It was really felt me bad when Nobody gave her seat. They only watched her for an instance and got busy in their own. Hell, I said, and asked her to take my seat. I laughed inside me when she asked me, Areyou getting down...I mean she still was thinking about taking seat. I said yes, you sit.
Its really very bad to see how much peoples can be so insensitive..really disgusting. Another day, A lady with 3-years old daughter was searching for a single seat when nobody gave her. She was little upset because she was feeling uncomfortable with the baby in rush hour.Again, like before nobody offered her to sit and I had to offered the seat........really not appreciating myself Loll...just telling How people ignore the things.
But, in another case, Another lady with her son..was really in need and this i couldn't offer the seat because I was also standing :d.... There were four five girls who were looking very modern and educated. I think they were college students. Their dressing style, make-up, their talking all were very impressive but so insensitive. Although they were staring towards her that she had her son in lap but None from them asked  the lady for seat. And I was about to say them..Go to Helll.....
God gave us a Healthy mind to use, A heart to feel but I don't understand why don't people use these two. Why they don't feel the pain of others, their sufferings and their Love.